Pages from a dancer's journal

HAPPY BDAE CAL PWINCESS!!!!

2007-10-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Latest Dance Pics and Updates

2007-10-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

resting in between the photo shoot:)
I did my photo shoot yesterday! Finally! haha and actually found time to post them online :P

Thanks for Lawrence, Alex and Beng Chye. All 3 really talented professional photographers who help me take so many lovely pictures. Here are some pics from Alex and Beng Chye, pictures copyrighted.

still waiting for some more pics! excited :P

It has been really busy at the company, but i thoroughly enjoying myself. I am living my dream! to be a professional dancer in a dance company, it may be hard and stressful at times, but things are getting better, colleagues are warming up and it feels a lot more comfortable now.

ARTS FISSION has two upcoming shows. One is a really exciting piece - Ghost Exchange , 1 & 2 Nov @ Substation. The other is on 1 & 2 Dec, TIGER BURNING at Esplanade Studio. Check them out or email me for more informtion. Tickets can be bought thru me :)

Bleu En Rouge

2007-08-12T08:30:00.000+08:00

Hi Everyone, please do support the upcoming contemporary dance production by my company, Arts Fission (http://www.artsfission.org/). Come watch okie!

The ARTS FISSION Company
Presents
Bleu En Rouge

@ The Esplanade Theatre Studio
31 August & 1 September, 8:00pm show

Tickets:
$37 , $27(students), $21 (Arts Fission friends)
Special X-passes $50 *limited to 6 passes per show only
Selected audience seats are incorporated near the chamber set for an up-close-and-personal viewing experience. (available only through private booking, call me 98800289 or call Arts Fission office 62386469 .

Click to buy tickets from SISTIC - <http://www.sistic.com.sg/cms/events/index.html?content=1062>

I GOT DISCOUNT! haha, SMS me on my mobile 98800289 - tickets @ $21 (usual $37)

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The new creation of Singapore’s leading-edge contemporary dance company comprises of two mood pieces that inter-cut into each other. Rouge by Angela Liong and Bleu by Elysa Wendi trace the routine pulses of transient living of young women in urban Asia, interrupted briefly by fractured remembrance of unyielding love flashed through ancient times.

Bleu En Rouge gleans movement motif from the dream sequence of Peony Pavilion, the 17th century Chinese K’un opera. Projection of images scattered on the set by Hong Kong video artist Maurice Lai are woven into the ambient soundscape of Singapore composer Philip Tan.

Belgium lighting designer Dries Vercruysse intriguingly illuminates a multiple-angled open chamber designed by Elysa Wendi.

My first off-day at the company - SUSHI DAY

2007-08-05T10:33:00.000+08:00

To celebrate my first off-day with the dance company, i decided to make it a sushi day today!!!! :P

so last night me and steven went to Cold Storage and bought all the stuff, like japanese rice, seaweed, crabsticks, jap cucumbers, smoked salmon. We decided to have a sushi party at my place.. (okok, not exactly party since there was only two us. haha)

Last night we sat in front of the TV and laugh at the silly taiwan variety shows and finish a bottle of dessert wine. (i think he drink like 99% of it, i only took like 5 sips)

Anyway, back to my sushi day! here are my wonderful delicious (he claims) sushi!

All the ingredients :P

hmm... looks rather decent hor keke

Dear is so silly, i was wondering what he was doing, he placed them to look like a shape of a stick man. SUSHI STICK MAN! haha

I even made healthy sushi for myself, see the ones on the right hand side? they are made of brown rice! inspired by stef's trips to US and telling me how in US all the sushi are made using brown rice!!!!! so since non is available here, i decided to make my own :) hee

So full.... urgh....

my first day :)

2007-08-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

I am t-i-r-e-d

but happy :)

need to work hard! lose weight! :P

A few hours to my first day of apprenticeship with Arts Fission

2007-08-02T09:56:00.001+08:00

Its 10am now, today my call-time is 1230pm, so nervous.. so excited...so happy...

I told myself before the audition that if i get the chance to dance with Arts Fission, I will give myself a little treat :) My dream came true and yes... this morning, i renew my subcription for DANCE Magazine! Always been an avid fan of this magazine...

*just crossing my fingers that they dun screw up my subcription deliveries like they did when i was in HK.

In any case... happy. I have to work hard, lose weight!!!

updates on my company life

2007-07-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

Met up with the company on Saturday! Will be starting work at the dance company on 1 August! wooo hooo! keke.

the hours are pretty cool! 1pm to 7pm, starting with company class everyday before moving on to repertoire; my apprenticeship will be for 4 months, until my first formal performance with the company in Decemeber then I will turn full time if nothing goes wrong. :) so excited, i have to work hard!!!

Meanwhile, probably still helping out part-time in the mornings at the Yoga place till they find someone else! oh dear... am stressing my boss la, cos she doesnt seem to want me to leave. She is nice though :) but... i really want to dance. so definitely dancing is my priority.

Dream do come true - the first baby step

2007-07-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

After torturous wait of 2 weeks, i finally got the call!

I got the job with Arts Fission! http://www.artsfission.org/ I love the company! I had to do their company class, learn their repertoire and did a solo during the audition and I enjoyed every bit of it, i love the way the class was conducted, the dance style and everything.

Dreams do come true

Am going to be an apprentice with them now! I will work hard! for my dream to dance professionally!

Happy.Happy.Happy

Thanks to my lao gong steven, and all my dear girlfriends for their constant support!

My Contemporary Dance Class

2007-06-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hi All,

I will be starting a contemporary dance class on Saturdays, style is pretty Fluid and Dynamic and involves a fair amount of contact with the ground, a style signature to what I have been trained with.

Venue: Orchard
Time: 130-3pm
Fees: ard $15 p. class (tbc.. maybe less depending on class size)

Plan to start on 14 Jul, please support, drop me sms at 98800289

help me ask your dance-lover friends too!

thanks! Shirley

my engagement and plans in Singapore

2007-06-24T08:46:00.001+08:00

This is probably something that some of my closest friends already know - I am engaged!!!

yesh! Steven proposed to me when he came to pick me up in Hongkong before returning to Singapore! So I am officially Mrs-Low-to-be. :) hehe... its been really wonderful to find someone whom i really love and can take care of me for the next 3/4 of my life. :) and everyone who know has been asking me when the wedding reception will be... not so soon! we need to work to save money and I need to lose like 2 sizes to look pretty! haha

I am currently working part-time at the Bikram Hot Yoga place! Its really funny, cause they engaged me after I attended a couple of yoga lessons there. The environment is pretty good and my boss is nice to me, plus i can do the yoga free now! haha, me now still dancng with Albert at PA and training with NUS with Zaini.

Just waiting for a couple of upcoming auditions with dance companies and hopefully can make my break into performing professionally!

HOT YOGA!

2007-06-14T11:28:00.001+08:00

hoooooooooooooooooot yoga! today am gg for my second lesson of HOT YOGA!

just one day after flying back, i booked myself for a one week unlimited pass at Bikram Yoga at Raffles City. Doing yoga in studios which are heated to 40 degrees!

I never thought that it will be so hard! I was gasping for air and feeling dizzy, had to stop and rest 3 times in the 90mins class!

but i shall not give up... shall go for the 230 class today!

ps. the teacher was very impressed with me.. surprisingly. she said that my alignment and flexibility is really good and asked me to do their championship competition in November, which i will be coached by the teachers personally. hmmm... lets see how things go after this one week, if i can stop feeling dizzy! harhar

shirley is back in Singapore!

2007-06-14T10:45:00.000+08:00

Landed in Singapore on 12th at 245pm... :)

im back! Im back! im back!!!!!!!

actually not many people know yet.. less than 10 i guess. (excluding my family)

now just 2 more days to my birthday! 2 main wishes for this year

1) LOSE WEIGHT (loads of it... all from the delicious HK food) haha

2) GET A JOB! (sigh... quarter-life crisis)

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this 10months in HK has been a memorable one... quite fulfilling too. here are some pictures to remember this one year at HKAPA:

my best fren in school! JODY! thanks for everything baby.. u have been there for me and help me. and have learn much from you too! miss u, cant wait to see u on 25th!

Two other really good good friends at APA, this pic was taken after they made a special trip to meet me at MK, just to see me and hug me. so sweet la

one of the group pictures at the 'goodbye' session at my school lobby :)

fabulous teacher from Taiwan! she is such a good dancer.. really have to thank her for pushing me in my dance technique! very grateful! you are the best Ms Cho-Yi! I will miss having ur class!

Another fabulour (and pregnant) teacher Yi-San from Taiwan at APA, she taught me so much. things that I never consider or think about last time when i dance! I will miss u too!!! will email you soon la!

soon!

2007-06-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

hey dearies... sorry for MIA-ing from my blog, it has been a crazy period for me.

The last period before coming back to Singapore. Many things have happened in this one year in Hong Kong... good and bad, happy and sad...

I will be back in Singapore next week, will be in touch really soon! keep in touch lovelies! :)

:)

2007-05-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

i just want to dance

dance

dance

dance

hopefully the good signs now will be my chance to fulfil my dream to dance

its a happy day... after a period of depression and worries

fat

2007-04-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

today, on skype:

me: I am so fat

bf: no la, where got?

me: I got such big thighs

bf: thats because you are an athelete

me: *pissed* so u agree la

bf: I knew u going to say that

..............

even my boyfriend thinks that I am fat. still always say no.

i hate myself

i am fat and bloated

and my period is late

FUCK

a bored post

2007-04-15T17:37:00.000+08:00

because of my knee... i decided to coop myself at home and minimise walking or moving too much. And a result is a:

bored me..

woke up with a bad headache and sore throat!

a clean dried washed xiaotu for company

a cult HK movie to spend the afternoon on the couch

a pot of brown rice porridge to satisfy my stomach

then act as food for the terribly irritating mosquitoes (they bit at the weirdest places... like two bites on my butt! grrr)

but

my knee seems better. *pray hard*

quickies! keke

2007-04-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

11 April

My first taste of HongKong style BBQ! gosh, its gorgeous, absolutely delicious. My classmates organised a gathering to a BBQ shop, where they prepare all the food, including the BBQ pit! the best part is that... they do not use oil/butter to cook, they use honey!! YUMMY! much healthier too!

and the BBQ items were so HongKong-ish... i BBQ-ed Siew Mai, Char Siew, Bread, Tau Pok (fried beancurd), Green Pepper, EggPlant..... and of course the usual hotdog and meat.

Must try this when i go back to Singapore! lets have a party!

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12 April

WASHED xiaotu! she smells like flowers now

First day of school, dance class was okie! although we did not do as much dance combinations, but worked up quite a bit of sweat, i think my teacher Cho-Yi went easy on us since it was Day 1. Joined upper level class after that, but ended up doing yoga and massage... hehe, cos i think the teacher was still in a 'holiday' mood.

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13 April

its Friday the 13th! argh! today was enjoying my dance lessons, until the last 15mins of class when my left knee suddenly acted up on me. argh!!!!!!! so sian. lost all mood for the whole day was so grumpy :X, shall stay in during the weekend to rest..... one more hour to a better day after the 13th!

ps. my period is late. GRRRRRRRRR (aka fat and bloated)

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love-ly days

2007-04-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

A fabulous holiday... with a love-ly post:

due to my craving for steamboat and after searching online forums for recommendations, we found this steamboat chicken rice dinner called Thien Kee (I think) at the basement of Golden Mile Tower... it was soooo scary. It was so crowded and packed that the entire basement was filled with their steamboat tables. more than wedding la. haha

yummy!

Full and satisfied. look at the empty steamboat pot!

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OOoooooooooooooooooo and and. I did eyelash extensions! yeay! look at my eyes, they look bigger now, feeling pretty. haha. i did it at this shop called Browhaus (sister store of STRIP)! it was fabulous, it was exactly what i wanted, painless session. in fact, i fell asleep...

me with my 'new' eyelashes.. not that obvious cos hard to zoom on the lashes. HAHa

Dear and me (with my new lashes) at coffeebean @ Taka

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Then dear dear treated me to this Japanese Dessert Resturant that I wanted to try so much!

xiaotu and dear looking at menu

ramen, tofu grill, cali maki, egg pancake..... :P

and of course, dessert!!!!!!!!!!!!! RED BEAN JELLY dessert! it was quite good, but so ex, like 9 bucks for this tiny bowl of dessert. Even more than some of the main courses that we ordered.

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Went to Soo Kee and Lee Hwa to look at solitaire rings. happiness.... hmmm... no surprise factor? doesnt matter la, cos I know he is the one for me. :) just that its not official until the diamonds girls! haha

a lovely day with my flatmate

2007-04-07T16:13:00.000+08:00

first... gosh, its been like.. almost 3 weeks since my last post.

Sorry la... i havent found time or energy to post anything.

School has been good and ok, have to work hard. its my holidays over this weekend, due to Easter and Ching Ming day in Hong Kong. haha.

but this post is a belated post for a lovely day spent last Sunday with my flatmate. On Saturday night, i went to her parents place with her to have super delicious homecooked meal, there was steam minced pork, stirred fried beansprouts, beancurd skin stew, steamed pomfret fish, chinese boiled soup!!!! WOWOWOW *happiness* *contentment*

Then on Sunday, EAT AGAIN aiyo! ate cheap and good DIM SUM with her and her parents at Tuen Mun Zhong Sum. Then we took a bus ride and had a walk around the Gold Coast Beach.. a nice picture of my flatmate and her nice parents: Then me and Jo (my flatmate) took siao ba (small bus) to town and watch a nice arty movie by a chinese director titled "My Post Modern Auntie", quite touching, nice cinematography too. Also at the same time, I found this really authentic bottled VITASOY milk, so cheap (only HK3,90) and super delicious. I could not resist but bought two bottles more home.

Then we walked to Yau Ma Tei, to this very authentic teahouse. Its is so beautiful! see pic! the owners insisted on not changing their decor, from the mosaic, to the posters, windows, tables nad chairs all oozes sexy chinese style. haha

me and xiaotu at the teahouse :P

view of the lovely teahouse at Yau Ma Tei

yesyes, eat again, we had some light stuff and went to an eggy place to eat, a shop called "Europe milk company" Au Chow Sin Nai Gong Si, haha. whats unique about this place is that they serve only toast/egg/milk sets all day round, and its still super crowded. I had the toast set... which came with a hot milk drink, a slice of buttered toast, scrambled eggs. WOW. being an egg lovely... this is like a haven for me.

end of my lovely eating day la...

shall post soon!

:)

2007-03-17T12:33:00.000+08:00

today i got a mail from one of my mentor, somehow, i was really encouraged by the email. I will work hard and work for my dreams to dance come true.

its so hard. there are so many days i wake up feeling so lost and discouraged, esp since singapore isnt really a place for the arts...at least not now. I have to work hard and return the money i borrowed to study at APA and then save to start a studio or maybe a company in future. that will be truly a dream come true la

:)

2007-03-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

i just want to say.....

I LOVE U STEVEN LOW GUAN WEE! hehe...

Busy week ahead cause having a performance in school during the weekend. Will have rehearsals at night for the entire week from tuesday will weekend show. Then its off to start to work hard for another show in May, I should be performing in that show. Will work hard and dance!

ps. so it prob means that i cant be blogging as much. paisah. will be back blogging soon!

cant wait to be back to be with my love ones... miss steven, my family and all my girlfriends...

:)

2007-03-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

Have been really stressed recently cause am trying to plan for after graduation stuff. I just want to dance, to be in a company. but its so hard, cos in singapore... artistry dance is just... a struggling one.

anyway, have sent in some applications and planning for some auditions. hope things turn out well la...

happy.

am given a chance to try out a rehearsal today for an upcoming performance, will work hard!

I like farting foods

2007-03-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

sigh, i just realised that i am a 'farting' food eater... many of the stuff that i eat ( and i like) are all culprits behind bloating and flatulence...

hmm.... thats explains why sometimes i want to fart in class when doing some movements like downward facing dog stretch or sit ups. hahahahhahahah

HELP!

C-H-E-C-K---L-I-S-T:
(i ticked against almsot half the list) see below.....

Foods That Contribute to Gas Production (aka Farting foods) HAHA
1) Most beans --- RED BEAN!!!
2) Milk --- Almost everyday with my cereal
3) Vegetables, Cabbage, broccoli; cauliflower; cucumbers; asparagus; Root vegetables; Potatoes (YES TO ALL)
4) Cereals, breads (YES YES YES)
5) All foods that contain wheat and wheat products including cereals, breads, and pastries (oh god, these are all in my healthy must eat menu!)

oh shucks! i shall drink some vinegar drink now, its supposed to help..... argh

2007-02-26T21:49:00.001+08:00

i fainted today...

hmm.. maybe i ate too much. the blood all went to my tummy to digest the food :(

Photo update for BLOG-MIA days

2007-02-24T01:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR DEARIES^^

Hmm... havent been blogging, been too tired to even check my email during the period before my school holidays.

Soo.....here is a quick photo update of whats happening.. its still school holidays now (yes!), was over in Singapore... happy to be spend time with my family and most of all STEVEN! My Jiejie arranged for a family photo shoot (see the crazy pics).

playing around !

my loving daddy n mommy

Queen Nola (my mum's name :P )

my dad and his girls

me, dear, xiaotu!

dear dear look so cool! ^^

one of the few 'serious' ones :)

Now am back in Hk already, starting school on 1st Mar!

dance!!! :D MUST WORK HARD! the last 4 months before my graduation :D

Absolutely have to diet! i only lost 5 pounds in this holidays! yahhhhh. aiming for at least 15 more pounds!

"Falling in love with dancing is magical.. it feels predestined, as if one is meant to be a dancer first ...... and then a human being"

A bloody wednesday :/

2007-01-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

As much as I find it amusing.. its hard to laugh with the painful wounds I have now.

On wednesday morning, i woke up especially early in hope to catch the earlier bus to go school to revise and practice my dance combinations for the morning technique class. So... I was walking really fast (okok...maybe light running) and ..... tripped over. ended up with deep big cut on my left wrist and right knee...

Even the stairway to my apartment still has my blood stains (just checked n saw it today. :P)

So I ended up with a terrible dirty wound (with no firstaid kit at home), held cotton pads to it and took 1 hour bus to school. But the magic of dance! It just makes me forget all my troubles and pain and unhappiness, so i still managed to do two contemporary dance technique classes and one ballet class.

Before going to the hospital to get a jab and clean my wounds, cried so much cos it was so painful, the nurse was using the giantic cotton buds and digging the dirt out of my wounds. :X

Still managed to dance all my classes and even join the upper level classes, only rolling on the floor is a little difficult cause I am one hand handicapped now. I even cartwheeled with one hand. so silly.

But there are happy things this week :)

gotten a piece of good news. though i can't say anything in this blog. although its not confirmed... but am happy that my dedication and love for dancing is paying off, even in tiny bits! thrilled :D

last night's dream

2007-01-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

i woke up shaking and crying....

i dreamt that Steven was angry with me and i was just so so sad in the dream... i dun believe that dreams tell the future, rather i believe that it means something in one's subconscious-ness .

amusingly.. in the dream I was in a departmental store's fitting room (me and my shopping) when steven called me on my phone (which conversation i cant recall) and he got mad at me and hung up. Then my phone was spoilt (what timely moment) and i couldnt contact him back.. i was so upset and frustrated. My mum appeared from dunno where (dreams need no logic i guess) and tried to help me send sms to steven on her laptop (reality check: she doesnt even have one) which failed somehow. I was crying and crying and all steven's friends appeared beside me... (JK, Ant, Zann) and just when they were about to come over to console me.. i woke up. with tears. and soreness on my chest

There are days i feel so lonely here, i still do
there are days i want to just throw down everything here and come back to you dear
but i will be letting myself, my teachers, you, my family down cause everyone supported my dream of dancing
Even when we are miles apart.. you mean the world to me. I just want you to know that

i love you, my steven dear

this weekend

2007-01-12T08:58:00.000+08:00

dearies... me will be uncontactable for the next few days. Am leaving for taiwan this evening and will be back on Sunday mid-day. My phone has no IDD and I doubt i will get internet there...

So just a quick update and muacks muacks. will be back in a flash! hehe

UPDATE ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

I have been cyber-MIA cause for the past two weeks, the internet was quite bad due to the Taiwan earthquake..haha... but i think the main reason was that I wanted to spend time with steven. :)

This two holidays have been so nice... except that its freezing at my place cause i have no heater at home. haha. so i always fight for the blanket with steven at night... its weird today waking up to a much 'bigger' bed, without steven squeezing with me on my single bed. :( had trouble sleeping..

But, been happy for the two weeks. (thanks to dear dear for tolerating my PMS moods for the 1st week, was super bloated this time!) HARHAR..

we did the usual eating and shopping...eating and shopping... but this time round, it was more special than this....... we....

(1) Spending XMAS away from the CRAZY crowd, cuddled together and watching TV at home!

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(2)Taking cable car to see BIG buddha

on cable car :-)

BIG buddha (its really quite big la :P)

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(3) Go Hiking at Sai Kung

dear steven, cute xiaotu, me, my lovely flatmate Jo

Xiaotu at Sai Kung....

Taking more silly pics

fresh stuff sold on boats..woah

.......and spending the afternoon and dinner at Sai Kung center
(so nice, makes me think of holland village)

me with big delicious pumpkin bread :P

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(4) Scaring ourselves silly at the AIA world carnival

BIG FERRY WHEEL

pretty carnival

(aiyo, steven looks skinny in this pic, dear dear... u need to eat more!)

me with pretty flowers

bird-view of the carnival

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(5) Spending 2007 New Year countdown at Macau

many people.... mins before countdown

5..4..3..2..1... happy 2007 :D

Macau fishermen wharf tourist attraction

St Paul's church (we got married! haha...kidding)

SKYJUMP!!!

I JUMPED Macau tower! 233meters! 61 floors! 15 secs! FUN!

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(6) Misc fun things ^^

eating my favorite dessert RED BEAN!

making scarf for xiaotu~!

Taking more silly pics.... keke. this is my dear superman steven

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Anyway... this post just about summarised my two weeks of holidays that just zoomed past and I am 12 hours to the start of my winter term in school!

must work hard work hard work hard.... jia you!!! and improve my dance technique!

and lose weight!!...

been happy and blissful and .....lazy for 2 weeks, cause no school. argh! i think i so fat now! and my diet pills make me shake so much that i think i better stop after two days.

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DEARIES...

2006-12-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

Another xiaotu post!

2006-12-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

Weather in HK is sooooo cold now. my hands are like numbed now as i am typing on my lappy. its probably like 13degrees. my skin is soooo dry and painful! so i decided to give xiaotu a good warm blanket when she sleep. SEE! so cute, xiaotu is sleeping on a "my melody" hanky!

2006-12-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

12 more days love! missing u dearly

xiaotu hasnt lost weight! yeah!

2006-12-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm....how heavy am I?

14grams!!! same as last time. Xiaotu didnt lose weight! gooooood

Finally

2006-12-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

I finally bought Steven's birthday present :) SO HAPPY... but i cannot say what it is cause my dear dear reads my blog. hehheheh

So.... Shh..................... 8)

love makes the world go round

2006-12-03T11:28:00.000+08:00

Have been reading blogs of my dear friends and saw how many of us (including me) have been going through quite a rough patch in life... be it a physical or emotional problem.

Can money solve our problems?...maybe it can help. but only temporarily.. like retail therapy!!!!!!!!! I pick to buy more clothes! haha. maybe some red bean soup. I remembered the days when i was with rich guy, but i was not at all happy and i was not loving at all. its like feeding money to a bottomless pit.

There are days i wake up here in HK with tears cause i miss Steven so much. Days in school where i feel like crap and lonely. Days where i cant balance properly on my demi-points. Ugly days when we all wake up feeling bloated, fat and ugly.

But i know one thing

I live because i have and can LOVE

Not just love for and from steven but also love for/from my friends and family, love for dance. Shitty days makes us stronger cause we learn to be strong and fight!

Lets all be fighters. Love u all!

Miscellanous..

2006-11-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Just wanted to blog on miscellanous stuff happening recently :P

Hmm.. these are days when i dun have a particular issue or event i want to blog... but i just have things i want to say... keke

my boyfriend! yesyes... (22 more days dear! i cant wait for you to come... ) my darling boyfriend has been so sweet to clean up all his leave to come visit me in december and he is staying till 6 Jan! Spending both xmas and new year with me. With him, everyday is a celebration.... :)

Dance! .... and more dance! dance! dance! YUP, thats my life now.. revolving around APA and home. But am loving every single minute of it. my next performance is on 19 dec! good show! I will work hard and train hard! today i joined an extra Pointe class in school, the centerwork was rather tough, but i enjoyed the class tremendously, hopefully can find time to join again, Stella teacher is reallllllyy gooood :P i wish i can have more time to attend another pointe class in a week, once is simply nooot enough!

weather! (what a borring topic) anyway... its finally getting cooler... its like 19-20+ degrees at HK now. pretty nice, cold when there is strong winds.

oh.. i actually read quite a bit while am here in HK. probably cause being alone, a book can be quite a great company, and definitely makes travelling journey on public transport a lot more enjoyable . unless one has a screaming hyperactive kid sitting next to her... like me today x)
hmm.. i just finished reading book titled "why do men have nipples" and now am starting on its sequel titled " why do men fall asleep after sex" HAHHAHAHHAH

Today, I am a ...

2006-11-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

Cleaning LADY! hahah. I finally found time to clean my house thoroughly... i vacummed, mopped, clean toilet, changed new bedsheets, wash clothes..... PHEW. so tired now. but happy cause feel so comfortable in my clean clean house. (technically, i didnt exactly wash clothes since i used the washing machine la :P )

Sigh. its really great to be independent at times.. but i miss my mommy when it comes to chores.

hmmm... but i still havent wash xiaotu. ooops. but she smells sooooo nice... 8)

LOVE from Cartier

2006-11-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

Isnt this simply beautiful? Stunning!!!!!!!!!!! SWOOOON hahaha. I was super mesmerized when i saw a local magazine featuring this limited edition ring from cartier. Steven says its too girly for it to be a wedding band for him. hahah. really ah? If u are a guy...would u wear this?

the disappointing side of people

2006-11-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Some things have happened in school recently... good and bad. But it also made me realised that who are the people who are true and who are not. Its amazing how words can get twisted and it changes the whole situation.

Should I tell my side of the story... i guess i wont. because i know that its hard to change people's mindset about something. And I dun think they will understand anymore.

My current policy is "less listen, less talk, less care" = more happiness

Cause i know that I will be strong and dance hard. thats why i came HK for.

On Pointe!

2006-11-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

today I started my first lesson on pointe! it was a 2.5 hour ballet class with the last half hour on pointe. wow! *ouch* the feeling of dancing on pointe is sooo different from dancing on soft slippers! But I like the feeling.

People asked me why I want to learn? I guess its because I think that to be able to dance on pointe is really beautiful (hehe) and that I think it will strenghen my ankles and legs. The teacher is really good, i think i get more advice than in school.. probably cause our class in school is just too large for one teacher to give attention to so many people. I think I will try to attend her class at CCDC this friday too! so happy. I need to improve my ballet and technique.

Today is the first day of production week, its the week where degree students at APA put up their performances and as a result the timetable is more relaxed for the rest of us. But have to rehearse and do homework! so can use the spare time.. good good. Thanks to Kaki for helping me with my duo homework! :) XIE XIE. Days also end earlier so it means that I can get more sleeeeepppppp..... ZZZZ :) and also find time to go for extra class. heeee.

DANCE DANCE DANCE

2006-11-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

for steven low

i love u forever

2006-11-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

I been feeling lonely.. but well. I guess I am alright. cause i belive that my love for dance will help me withstand periods of loneliness...

for the next two weeks... i will be having a much more relaxed timetable though still have rehearsals. but will have more early nights. phew. more sleep ZZZ yeah :)

I am starting to train on pointe from next monday onwards. so excited for my first class... am sure it will be very simple releves at barre. but am happy... need to work hard

so much homework to do!!!! phew
got to do research on dance choreography
choreograph and present a pas de deux
choreograph and present a solo piece
present a dance notation piece... all have to be done in these 2 weeks!

Fly

2006-11-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

Beatrice Chia once told me not to get upset or affected by how someone says something to me... I should take whatever I can from it and fly with it.

Having said that.... to nonsense and plain rudeness, i cant be bothered with them.

but yes.. I will fly with everything else. Thanks Bea... those advice really stayed with me since i worked with you during the musical

I realised how this simple way of thinking changes my perspective in looking at things and makes me stronger and wiser (perhaps)..

but I am glad that this advice will stay with me while i fight for my dreams

ps. thks all sweets who cheered me along for my previous post

I wonder why

2006-11-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder why some people are so immature and narrowed-minded. Or maybe its just my subjective perspective.

Its funny how first impressions arent quite accurate at times..because over time, you get to see one's true personality (the not so nice part).. the way they talk and judge others, the child-like way they think. And it simply doesnt fit in the right channel with me.

But i tell myself to be strong... I am alone in HK. but I will be a fighter and fight for my dreams. My aim in HK is to improve myself in dance and that shall be my main focus..

I must not let anyone, or any words hurt me... and try to stay as an outsider...cause nothing is more important(except Steven :) ) to me than dancing

but i really wonder sometimes... why why... why do people act like this... my words to them "dun judge upon others until you can judge your own true self"

Anyway...last sat met up with steffie and we had such nice lunch yar (thks for the treat).. its was really so nice to have someone to really chat with..somone whom i dun feel like i am an outsider. take care dear...hope u get well soon... take care of your health!

Since 10 Oct...

2006-10-23T07:43:00.000+08:00

Wow.. I didnt even realise that I didnt blog for quite long...hmm...almost 2weeks! so decided to blog this morning before i leave for school...

actually its probably a good thing that i didnt blog everyday cause it will bore everyone...since I am very much just doing the same thing everyday.... dance...eat...sleep :P haha

My dance: still working hard and trying to improve myself in modern tech class... only thing is that the class is so damn crowded cause there are always ballet and chinese dance pple joining us. argh. sometimes i get frustrated cause I can even see the legs of the teacher from 4th row onwards. its worse tham outside commercial classes...i cant even find a space to squeeze to look at the mirror..I have solo sections in some of the performances that I am rehearsing for... happy. will jia you!

my health: pretty much okie... same same la. except i burnt my tongue yesterday while eating RED BEAN soup! ahha. and my some of my nails are coming off the nail bed cause of too much dancing on barefoot... eks. *ouch*

my rabbit: xiaotu is still the same la. but i bought xiaotu a friend...its a ninja! It will serve as xiaotu's bodyguard! haha. I shall post some pictures in my next blog post... its really cute, even has a cape! i bought it at this fair for HK$10. prob like $2 singapore

got to go school soon. take care everyone..miss u all. But miss steven the most...:) sigh. waiting for december to see my dear dear!

Happy

2006-10-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

Im blessed with a lovely husband like Steven,
thanks for everything dear,
you keep me going on...

2006-10-07T21:09:00.000+08:00

cute clip of my favorite cartoon

MIRUMO!! i love the cartoon. if anyone knows where to buy the entire series, let me know ok. i only managed to catch few episodes on tv and watched some on U tube! soooo cute. and the rabbit fairy is so so me

2006-10-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

This week is a better week... am feeling much happier and stronger emotionally...I guess it was an accumulation of things.. from loneliness, to physical tiredness, to the stress of losing weight, to some un-nice things people say (whether intentionally or unintentionally).

So this will be a good post.

Thanks and love to all who were concerned about me.... muacks muacks muacks

Finally done with all the homework for this week for school. Presented my short dance for Intro to Documentation and Technology class @ APA. Phew!!! two more days to weekend and I will get to see my dear dear Steven. He has been so sweet and arrange for a stopover for 3 days at HK before he heads back to Singapore (is currently at Canada). I miss him so.

AUdtion results! I got selected for 2 modern and 1 chinese. Final - dancing one modern and one chinese piece... cos one of the modern am not the first choice. Am happy la :) I will work hard.

Dec performance... the one which am helping master student Chen Kai... he is really good when he dance. So impressive. technicality, lines, fluidity and beauty.... all there in a package... I want to learn from him. He has been very nice and supportive and asked me to do understudy for a solo part in his performance and he hopes that I will be able to improve and work hard so that at the end I might get to dance too... so the solo becomes a duet!

went to yum cha with my apa friends in sat, bought a pair of boots for autumn and winter to wear, celebrated my classmate birthday on monday at a revolving resturant. had fun. thanks guys

This week seems much faster. Its already wednesday and thurs and fri is more relaxed in school. fri will get to watch show too!

Am on DAY 2 of my Diet Plan! Yeah! Jia you!

ps. Guesss what.. VITASOY has Red Bean Flavour here in HK! yum

2006-09-28T07:10:00.000+08:00

sad

2006-09-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Today...my teacher said

"you have the potential to be a professional dancer, work hard"

I will. Thanks for having faith in me!

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2006-09-23T09:56:00.000+08:00

Everyone has been asking me about school?

It has been great :) yesyes....A little politics here and there but am getting used to the culture and the invisible rules in school.

Modern classes are my favorite lessons..., although there has been periods of fustrations when i know I am under-performing. I seriously need to tone up my core muscles... already kana stressed by one teacher. But am glad that she is pushing me...I think my arch has gotten better... still have to accept the fact that I am flat-footed...but i seriously think that my point looks nicer!

Ballet is still my weakness... am working on my technique and not let my tummy stick out! haha

Next Monday have an audition....friends tell me its a waste of time because like in singapore, the auditions are just a formality, most dancers are already pre-chosen/casted. Personally I know that the chances of me getting casted will be very slim since none knows me. The audition is for ALL level dance students to audiiton to be casted in some upper level student's choreographic works. But an audition is an audition, its an experience that as dancer we all have to go through. So am just going for it.

In any case...am really happy that I have chance to dance in two works. One is a really talented Master Student who is using some Yr2 students for his dance performance in DEC...have already started the rehearsals last night and another Senior told me that she wanted to cast me in her piece next year too. It has been my dream to dance... and I will do my best in every opportunity I get.

Some homework to do for choreographic class @ CCDC... the theme of the piece is HOME.... what is home? the meaning of home to me?

Home is where we start from and also where we are bound for, the place we seek and the place where my heart is.

I know where my heart is :)

Shopping for my Feet!

2006-09-16T06:55:00.000+08:00

yes...this is the state of my current pair of ballet soft shoes!
SCARY MARY. haha. it really does look hedious
i think my toes will pop out of the shoes very soon.....
............so i went shopping!

Initially with the intention of just buying a new pair of ballet soft shoes...i ended up with an extra new pair of jazz shoes as well. AHHHHH. So gorgeous la! From BLOCH. I have gotten over the days when i was obsessed with dance sneakers. cos i now feel that dance sneakers hide the feet and not that nice for lyrical work...and cannot see the the arch in the feet when on point.
this cost me about HK250...thats like 50+ dollars. :)

YEAY! My new ballet soft shoes...its split sole! My FIRST pair of split soles.....
when i have more money i will buy a leather pair and bring back to Singapore..
Now i just have to love my canvas one!

:)

2006-09-14T09:17:00.000+08:00

gorgeous studio @ HKAPA

A good news! Got another small amount of money from SHHK to fund my studies here in Hong Kong! yeay! less worries about $$. more energy to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sexxxxyy

2006-09-10T18:54:00.000+08:00

Its a SEXYYYY weather in Hong Kong now....kekkekke. After a horrendous rainy day of storm signal RED, just overnight..the weather changed. I think its its the prelude to Autumn!

The temperatures have dipped to 23--26 oC...its soooooo nice. makes me melt *Ahhhhhh* its like airconditioning when the winds blow.

I love it! finally. away from the usual hot hot hot :P

First week at HKAPA

2006-09-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone...

I have finish my first week in school!!! Been so busy to even reply my emails....so didnt blog either. Looks like weekends will be my only time to blog. Anyway....school is great! Its very lucky that my class got 2 modern technique teachers who are fabulous! One of them is Joey Cho (hope i got the spelling of her name right), she used to be a dancer from Cloud Gate! Just like my teacher! *SWOONNNNN* *ENVY* *ADMIRE* *RESPECT*

Still learning and learning..trying to improve myself, my technique and core strength and alignment! JIA YOU! kekeke. But kinda wish the training is not as relaxed...timetable in school still kind of tentative and we are missing some ballet classes etc. Not that siong as i wished it will be.

Nonetheless, am enjoying my dance student life, everyday i wake up at 6 to cook my lunch and pack my things, leave house at 7 plus to catch my special bus to school area at 710am! Then i usually try to stay back to practise a little if i have energy and there is an empty studio...back home, wash clothes and ZZZZZ at ten-ish.... :P

School has been good. yesyes...still learning my cantonese! haha.The studios in APA are goregous!!!! nice flooring, pianist for lessons, high ceilings....super cold aircon! I will post a photo of the super nice studio in my blog soon.

Its really nice that i have gotten a class of wonderful classmates! They have been really sweet and helped me alot in many ways and try to include me in stuff...am grateful la.

I got new friends, SO DOES XIAOTU! Xiaotu and her friend MU MU beside!

Some of my really nice and pretty classmates at school

First Day In Dance School (Part 1)

2006-09-04T06:37:00.001+08:00

Its now 630am!! (yes..u didnt read wrongly), in fact woke up at 6am to get ready for my first day in school! rather nervous....and excited...These few weeks of school will be rather stressful cause we wil be vet in our technique classes and placed in levels accordingly.

First lesson of pilates followed by technique classes............ got to go...will update on how my first day went laters!

Happy Post

2006-08-31T11:44:00.000+08:00

I realised that I have been very selfish....I have been whining so much about me me me! argh...i used to cant stand friends who constantly whine and whine like the whole world revolves around them. Now I have become exactly what i dun like.

So here's a happy post. To say how grateful I am to be given a chance here in Hong Kong...and I will be here to dance and pursue my dreams. thanks steven dear, my dear family, friends and my dance teachers.

A really funny flash clip...ON YOUR SPEAKERS! http://dengjie.com/temp/bird.swf

WHAT IS WRONG WITH BLOGGER

2006-08-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

I keep getting problems with my blogs....errors...blank screens! ARGHHHH

awful

2006-08-30T11:36:00.000+08:00

how can one person feel so awful about herself

i have

1) a tummy

2) fat thighs

3) short legs

4) fat face

5) big arms

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Broke.......:(

2006-08-29T12:31:00.000+08:00

I just did my accounts this morning. So stressful

BUDGET - my rental and transportation = 25% leftover....which i still have to pay for my mobile line, my IDD card etc etc.....

this leaves me....

HK$40 dollars each day to eat and everything else

this is like SG$8 dollars everyday...

ps. I do feel quite like a student now... :(

aching but happy

2006-08-28T08:29:00.000+08:00

Am aching from packing my weekend with classes...but its an ache with happiness. I can't wait for tonite's dance classes!

:)

2006-08-27T20:36:00.000+08:00

I bought a RABBIT air deodoriser!! to freshen up my room! so pretty..

And got my things from Discount Dance! Happiness!! Got the foot straps for my dancing, the rabbit toy in the center?? is a magnet...meant to pick up all those bobby pins in our dance bag! and a degas dance water tumbler! A Dance quotation book! and a foot massager!
Now now...just waiting for my first copy of Dance Magzine, finally ordered it yesterday ...argh wish it will come NOW! NOW!

Shirley's Simple Life Episode 1

2006-08-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

wow..my second weekend in Hong Kong is almost over. My life here is so simple...school has not officially started so everyday i wake up at 7 or 8, do my chores and cook...have food then head out to dance classes at CCDC then come back home at night to have dinner and sleep at 10 plus! Think my body feels good too.

CCDC is really so good..or i should say the teacher Jocelyn is very good. She is very attentive to me in class ....hence often nag at my mistakes like my hip alignment or my releve... :/ She is quite fierce but i like that she pushes the students...

...But Im so happy. Cause today....after her technique class...she came and held my hand! She then started introducing me to some of the other students telling them that I am going to APA..Later on she turn to me and said "work hard ok" before she broke out into a grin! she even know whose class im attending at APA! :) I am so happy that she has faith in me...because I respect her and what she has went through and gotten so far in the HK dance industry. She is also an-ex APA graduate and went to London Contemporary Dance School after that...her name is one that everyone knows...from school to outside.

i will work hard. Tomorrow I have 1 technique and 2 modern class...i cant wait!

recently..i reconcile with a guy friend of mine. am glad to have found back that friendship...so to you! Cheerio and Take Care. Dun play so much MJ ah......:P

one more thing. I really need to lose weight la. I think i was the largest girl when i was in school for orientation on friday! arggh. didnt help that all of the girls are ballet majors! so tall and lean. But i still cant believe it..im the only girl in modern for this batch! But since i am a direct entry...means that NO girls at all for the year 1 modern dance. gosh. how can this be possible?

For Dear

2006-08-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

This pretty much sums up what I want to say to you my dear. I miss u so

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

Is think of you

I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you

I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain
I believe
Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be thereI
f I fall I won't break
Through it all
I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do

Is think of you

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

Dance, HK, Steven, Shopping

2006-08-24T18:58:00.000+08:00

I dunno how else to title this post. I suddenly have so much things to say today.

Yesterday night I went for CCDC Modern Class, had 2 classes back to back. 3 hrs straight! But it was good to start dancing again.

The teacher was very attentive to me, she is always! I dunno why....but she's is a really good teacher who can spot mistakes at one instance and also very strict with her students. She got quite a rep in the dance center...seems like some students cried after her class.

Actually I think I did ok in class..but..am not exactly training with professionals...thats why i could manage the jumps better than others. The only thing that bugged me is that I was nagged at the same things (by my teacher Derrick)...about my releve and my hips!

soooo pissed with myself. I dun want to push the blame to my flat foot....cos Derrick has flat feet too, but he dances amazingly. ARGH. I just think that I am not very consistent! I need to work hard!

Keep the good things going while improving the bad technique...checklist:
1. Better turnout, butt in, chest up
2. Stronger releve
3. Stronger inner thigh muscles to hold that heavy leg up!
4. Stronger core....need to cut that flab
5. My hip alightment!
6. Relax my upper body..feel the music and choreography
7. Stronger supporting leg
8. Watch my fingers (make sure bad habits dun come back)
9. Watch my weight la...so hard to lose weight :/

sighToday I rode bicycle around my area...quite scary la. Cos i think i am quite rusty already...havent rode a bike for ages. Didnt help that the bike is high that I can only reach the floor on my tippy toes.

Some of you asked me whether the place is really a village!

YES! This is the first time i see so much greenery in HK, see the picture! My apartment is surrounded by mountains

In the afternoon, decided to try taking the bus to Admiralty (near APA) to run some errands at the Post Office...didnt get lost! :) Smiles. Then i decided to take walk around Tsim Sha Tsui and hopefully find some cheap clothes! Cause i realise I didnt bring much to wear except my dance attire.

Luckily for me, i managed to find cheap buys. Found several shops something like This Fashion in Singapore. Today i bought 2 berms, two pants, 1 skirt...each NO more than 20 Sing Dollars! Yeay! ok. finito. no more shopping this month or i will be eating grass from next month liao

The walk brough back memories of my dear dear...i will go like "Oh, we ate her before" "Oh, we walked here before", "Oh, this is the mrt exit we always use"..i walked until i reach a hotel that we used to stay.

Gosh.

I miss you so much dear. Wish you were here with me agian...you can go eat your "yu dan" (fishballs) and I can eat my waffle balls...

I need to dance!

2006-08-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

I love this place....but i need to start moving. My body is screaming inside "I want to dance"

So today i went City Contemporary Dance Center...the training arm of CCDC, a national dance company in HK to sign up for their courses. I think I have gone mad. But I am signing up for 5 courses! Initially only wanted 4 courses..but they have a promotion of buy 3 courses and get 2 free! Have signed up for 2 technique classes, 2 modern classes...havent choose 5th 'free' one yet.

Argh. The Ballet Class that i want is full! Damn. Argh...means that i have to get coupons to pay for single classes...more ex. :/

But am so happy, i start tomorrow! Finally.

SUPER SONIC MOSQUITOES!

2006-08-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

Noone told me that mosquitoes have JUNGLE size! Gosh! look at this picture...the mosquito (which i killed *SMUG*) is beside a 10 cents coin! Its the same! aiyooooooo

I am a magnet for mosquito la. My flatmate claims that she has never gotten bitten by mosquitoes here...but i kana 2 in one day! gosh

Been doing quite a bit of cooking here, made fried egg, scrambled egg, sunny side up...hahah. cooked brown rice, yogurt cereal etc....yumyumyum . have to la. trying to watch my diet....sigh. its always so hard to lose weight

Been getting around places...am rather proud that today i managed to go 2 places and back and found my way! Steven says he's proud of me! heh. But i think at night...will be much harder cause so dark and everywhere near here looks the same,.... trees and bushes.....more trees and bushes....still trees and bushes.

ps. the buses here drive at supersonic speeds. wow. but scary la....and not good when one is not sure when to get off

A New Chapter In Hong Kong

2006-08-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

Today will mark my new chapter in Hong Kong. Alone. For my Dreams.

It was a painful day cause I had to say goodbye to my bf Steven who was here over the weekend with me to sort out my HK stay. Its been really hard on him, cause he has been so busy at work...but never once did he complained.

He had showed me 101% support for my decision to go HK to pursue my dance studies even though he knew that it meant that we would be apart.

I cried and cried...my eyes are so painful now. I know that I can survive alone...but my heart aches cause i miss him so dearly.. love you dear

Been so busy these few days..so many errands to do. Tmr somemore!

Here are some pics which I took over the 2 days, shows my village that I am staying in..pretty far from town, quiet but much cleaner air. my cosy bedroom. My newly washed XIAOTU!. my apartment's living area... Hope everyone's well and dancing! with love

My village...nice and quiet...and mosquitoes too

The Living Area...oh did i say the fridge is in the living room too! heh

my room

Sparkling white XIAOTU!

Dance shots combined

2006-08-18T10:56:00.000+08:00

Thks to the Power of PICASA from google :)

ps. i have to post this so that i can change my profile pic

my mini farewell party

2006-08-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

compliments from Queen Zaini

i had a mini farewell party at queen's place with the cabaret cast. Was so fun...AGAIN we have a lot of food (and leftovers) and we talk nonsense at the Purple Room.

And BIG thank you to Queen Zaini, Pwincess Naz, Gorgeous Deszie, Farah Mara, Zach, Siew Hoon and Celine (aka sailor slut? hehehhehehheh) for the lovely lovely gifts.

I got such nice things!!!!!!! i feel like its my b-dae
1) specially ordered lilac leotard
2) specially ordered maroon leotard
3) body-warmer
4) shawl
5) really nice gold earrrings...thank god my ear-holes didnt close

gosh. its already 1am, its thurs! means that just 2 more days, i will be flying off. wow

it was such a lovely party, thanks everyone..muackss. will miss everyone, stay happy and pretty! heh

Dancing is a lonely profession?

2006-08-15T11:31:00.000+08:00

I bought a couple of dance videos from Amazon and one of them interviewed dancers from Paris Opera Ballet...and they said, "Dance is a lonely profession"

In a way...its kind of true. Its rare that you will form many true friendships with fellow dancers. Maybe a few. And because of the nature of our work....its weird and irregular hours of training and performances, and its competititive nature of our work (everyone hopes to have the highest kicks, the best turns) its sometimes tough on relationships.

Then, having said so. Even meeting up with friends outside the circle is hard. Cause often i would only know my schdule last min and its hard to meet anyone else.

But i guess i am ok. I am very blessed. With someone who loves me dearly and able to accept the neurotic career of dancing that i picked.

Now I am leaving for HK. Everyone is just so surprised that I am still spending most of my time left in Singapore attending classes and training. But dancing is my life! this made it really hard for me to meet many people; so if we didnt meet, just wanna say take care and all the best. I will be blogging here and keep coming back!

ps. I bought myself a LOMO camera that i always wantes! HAPPINESS!

Aches and Pain

2006-08-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

Today i went for this really really good movement workshop by Mark Murphy at the esplanade. Its so interesting...after the workshop, my head was feeling with new highness, new ideas and a desire to move. we also did some weight sharing partner work. Its so cool...and so coincidental cause i jsut recently got introduced to Pilobolus...

I have been pushing myself to go for all my modern, ballet, jazz dance classes these few weeks. Trying to meet some of my mentors and friends and also for a very long time, concentrate on learning and training and prepare my body for the long hours at HKAPA.

But.....me now tired. If fact, I am so tired that i actually am losing sleep, cant sleep well..mind seem so active, cant rest.

aches and pain

is all i feel now. Gosh, i pray for a good sleep tonight *fingers crossed*

i called 999 today

2006-08-09T13:31:00.000+08:00

Today is an eventful day...i left house to teach dance and everything was still just fine. Until I came back....then I heard from my dad's friends that my neighbour is starting to hurl verbal abuse again...I decided to call the police.

My parents invited friends over for a get-together; perhaps that agitated my neighbour. Actually our bad relationship with her stemmed from 1.5 years ago when she started to cook at the corridors and my sister just nicely tell her jsut take care to clean the floors incase its oily and someone can fall....

AND SHE STARTED HER SHOUTING....scold me, my parents and neighbours. Once, she even asked me to go out and fight...which was my first call to the police becos of her. Then everyday we have to endure her verbal abuse....my parents most poor thing cos they at home more often than me

Thank god we have evidence to prove all her scolding today! material and witness too...all the frens heard. Sigh must be embarassing for my parents...

Its amazing what this woman can say, today she
- scolded my parents bian tai (pervent) many times
- ask us to call police
- go near our door and ask us and all our frens to come out (AND DO WHAT??)
- insulted my parents being teachers
- say that her daughter got summon for parking the car downstairs and we are the cause for it (WHAT THE F**K) so does that mean that i should give her credits to our summons too?
- went to our other neighbour and scolder us in front of them

honestly...i wish i am deaf. But i am not. And I am so worried that I will not be able to be around to protect my parents should anything happen when I am not around

Hopefully...law can

Superhero?

2006-08-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

Its been such a long time since i heard a song that i feel so much and relate to... Little SuperHero Girl - Corrine May

Don't all of us need a song...to perk us up and inspire us?

From SuperMan,...spidey...batman...x-men... superhero?

No, not them.

All we need to....is to look within ourselves. It wont hurt to have the courage to fight for our dreams...

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
And I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
I'm going to be a SuperHero

I am.

for my dream

Thank You NAC!

2006-08-05T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday...after a painful wait of a week...endless checking of my emails...i couldnt take it anymore, i called NAC to ask about the bursary.

When the lady on the phone told me that the letters have already been sent out....my heart suddenly stopped. So using what was left of my voice...i ask her if there were email notifications as well. This time....there wasnt (phew). means i still got chance.

Then she ask me my name and my arts category (dance)....i could hear her flipping thru some documents to check...i held my breath and my heart beating became faster and louder.

She said

Yes, you got it. 13,000 dollars

:)

thank you. my prayers and my b-dae wish came thru

a lazy week

2006-08-04T09:58:00.000+08:00

Since Cabaret ended last weekend...this has been one of my most lazy week that I had spend doing nothing but lazing at home, surfing the net, eat and sleep like a pig. Its as though I just want to shut down my system... though did managed to teach and meet up with my girlfrens in the week. This is no good. Need to pick myself up and go workout in the gym or something...

tonight wanted to go for Derrick's Jazz class...but Zaini called me and ask me if i wanted to watch SAJC Dance Concert which he will be guest performing...so I agreed. Good show dear! hmm..*what should i wear* hahahhaha

its 9 days more to my dear's arrival next week....and 15 more days before I count down to Hong Kong. hmm...i want time to pass fast because I miss my boy so muchie and am also so excited about starting school in Hong Kong; but at the same time I will miss my dear so dearly when I am away...aiya......grrrrr....:/

Anyway...kinda upset cause am chasing payment again. Guy J. J was supposed to pay me before Cabaret, then gave reasons like club delay, he sorting out things...etc...every beginning of each month he say he pay me end of that month, but it never came. He once ask for my account number,...but still not paid me yet. Now even Cabaret is over and i still havent received my pay! HMPH. very pissed. its my hard earned money, whats wrong with me asking for it right? so I will ask. Now he claims that he is overseas......:(((((((((

NUS Dance Ensemble - THE NEXT WAVE 2006

2006-08-02T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, do support NUS Dance Ensemble's annual dance performance. Public Sale for tickets are now open, check out Gatecrash.com.sg to book tickets. Performance dates are on 15 and 16 Sept.

Dunno NUS DE? how could u?? heheh, some background info for you:

About the Ensemble

Founded and led by resident choreographer Zaini Mohd Tahir, The NUS Dance Ensemble turns fourteen this year with The Next Wave 2006. A prolific dance company with its cast of over a hundred undergraduate and alumni members, the Ensemble has also earned a reputation for its impressive versatility, evidenced by its diverse repertoire consisting of ethnic, modern and classical dance forms. For years, the Ensemble has enthralled and inspired audiences with performances of passion, honesty and innovation. The Next Wave 2006 promises to deliver all that, and much more.

Together with the resident choreographer, Zaini Mohd Tahir, the Ensemble is showcasing pieces by the strong core of Ensemble choreographers such as Shahbirul Zaki, who is a well established choreographer and dancer in the commercial dance scene. This year’s Next Wave is also featuring choreography by Dan Kwoh; winner of the Best Male Dancer Award (2005) in CSTD’s Theatrical Festival in Perth and budding young choreographer in the contemporary dance circle. The Next Wave 2006 is a dynamic display of artistry and enthusiasm, not to be missed.

TCC card...finally

2006-08-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

After carefully keeping all my TCC receipts, I got my TCC card (*88 dollars to redeem)! YEAY! I put it under Steven's name..since I wont be in Singapore to enjoy the most of it.

so dear, u will get it in your mailer soon :)

Yesterday afternoon had a girly meet up with two of my dearest friends (yes...at TCC) heheh, we had such a joy chitty chattering :) its nice to keep up with each others lives...esp when we all work in different industries and all have weird schedules
stef: air stewardess, irregular flying schedules
nana: music industry, irregular and fairly long hours
me: dancer/dance teacher; irregular teaching and performing hours

but...we all remain to be an important part of each other lives and support one other when things arent going that smoothly. love them dearly

its 13 more days before my darling comes back, i miss u!

2 lychee voldka

2006-07-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

Last night, we had a private party for the CABARET musical cast and crew at LOOF, this really nice breezy rooftop place near Mod Living... Kris (Fei Xiang) was so sweet to plan all these.. he is an amazing performer and singer..

Anyways...I think I cannot drink anymore. Just one glass of lychee voldka and I was feeling fluttery and light! And on the second...I was feeling pukish on my way back on cab and threw up when I reach home

Oh god. How did I ever drink so much last time?? maybe im getting old...hehheeheh

Standing Ovation

2006-07-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

Today CABARET was a good show. In fact, its has been fabulous....just getting even better! heheh

We had a standing ovation

I felt so happy... to be on the stage of Esplanade today

:)

auditions and dance

2006-07-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

got another audition to go tmr morning....for a MTV spot. Good luck! :)...glad that they didnt mind that I am chinese. (i actually called the lady back to ask her if she minded)

In case u wondering why I have gone all RACIST...just last week I went for a dance audition for a bank ad which rejected cos they wanted NON-CHINESE. it was the first time I got rejected based on my skin colour, I was so upset for like 2 days after the audition. ...am ok now....

Because

I will still keep on dancing

no matter what people say

go for auditions and learn

go to HKAPA and train

and live my dream

not to be judged by my skin colour

but hopefully one day

to be loved as a dancer

This is my CenterStage...

and I live to dance

1 week...

2006-07-27T11:50:00.000+08:00

After Jeffrey asked me whether NAC called me, kind of got me worried about it. So I called NAC this morning and was told that the list of recipients for the scholarshops/bursaries is out, but offical notification will be next week.......brrrr......so nerve wrecking.

Honestly, I am so afraid cos really...it will be so disappointing if...(touch wood) but i cant stop thiinking about it!

In any case, I will keep pushing...to live my dream..to dance

Dancers Night

2006-07-26T11:02:00.000+08:00

Last night was a dancers night.

Many of our dancer frens came to support us at CABARET :) even Jeffrey Tan from Singapore Dance Theatre came to watch! :) (he is such an inspiration) Anyway...we had so much fun chitty chatty after the show, first makan at GluttonsBay, then when to Harry's...all the way till 130am!

Am glad that they like the show and enjoyed themselves! Cathy even said that it was one of the better shows she has watched by far this year!

Sorry my dear dear...I know u wondering where I was....I saw the webchat too late and by the time I replied, it already ended. Sorry to have made u worried. Love you so muchie :)

Toyfactory's CABARET musical opening night

2006-07-23T10:19:00.000+08:00

Last night was a good show, despite all the teeny technical faults, we held the show together. Apart from the very sharp-eyed audiences or people who already knew the parts...almost everyone else couldnt sense something was amiss.... (Shhh...)

Anyway, the show is great, not trying to blow my own trumpet just because I am part of the cast.

Its a show u shouldnt miss :)

Dear in Canada....and my new lappy

2006-07-15T10:52:00.000+08:00

This morning sent my boyfriend off to the airport....he is off to Canada for his worktrip. Arghhhh will miss him so much...miss his love, his kisses, his hugs, his smell, his sheepish grins, his jokes, his love for xiaotu, his hair, (erm) his junior...heh....everything!

after sending him, i drove back to his place and wait for the SingNet people to come...finally came at 1030 to set up the new modem for his upgraded broadband and to give me the laptop that came along with the contract signed with Singnet.

My dear is so sweet. Although I kept on telling him that I can just use my sister old laptop, he got this lappy for me. Its a Lenovo lappy, small and chic :) userfriendly and simple...puuurfect for girlie like moi!

Anyway...dear dear, if you are reading this
- I have already posted your letter
- Will help u change wipers next week, prob tues
- have called jetstar and scolded them. they sending the revised ticket to your email soon
- the internet is done. Anything I will call them
- there are two slips of paper which i signed and they left with me. its the warranty for the lappy and the modem, will leave at home

let me know if there is anything u need me to do. If your phone cant work, email me ok. I will check my mail everyday

love love

VISA

2006-07-13T11:22:00.000+08:00

school called me.. my VISA is approved :)

Happy and relieved. Another hurdle crossed!

now....its the $$$

praying hard

NAC interview and ...

2006-07-08T09:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday... I went for my NAC interview

Came out of the interview feeling good. I know that its super hard to get the bursary award. Despite the stress of my finances....I left the place happily...comments from industry respected veterans like Jeffrey Tan and Aaron Khek who were both sitting on the board seems very supportive that my decision to pursue dance in HongKong.

Currently everyday at CABARET, very fun! and very enriching experience...dance and dance, sing ang sing

I NEED to lose weight...sigh..poor fredrick lee have to adjust my corset cos I cant breathe in them :((((((((((((((((( but everyone says i didnt put on weight. But am sure i must have

dear dear is leaving next sat..officially 1 more week........sobz..will miss him so

Canada??

2006-06-30T11:33:00.000+08:00

My dear dear may be going to Canada...for a worktrip. So wont be able to watch Cabaret (sob) but its ok. I am so happy for him. :) so cool... I dun even think I will ever land a foot in Canada. harharhar.

So in fact....He may leave Singapore even before I go to Hong Kong!

this kinda got me thinking of the places I wish to go:
1) Japan
2) New York

actually...seems like that's about it. heh. But the two places soooooooooooo EX. I know my dear wants to go Manchester, UK. He's a Reds supporter la. And also switzerland...he said its a beautiful place.

ps. today getting the first 40% of Cabaret pay! gosh, cant wait man

Me in LIME Magazine!

2006-06-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

Did a promotional feature for CABARET Musical performance....this is the article in this month's LIME. Was so scared that my face will look like mooncake but.....I must say....the peeps at LIME did a fabulous job, very witty and pretty article :) Cheerio

steven

2006-06-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

On a day in the month of April at Muddy Murphy's

I met this amazing guy called Steven

Drinking with his friends after watching soccer on the Tele

He look so cute, very guai guai and looked very young

Mobile numbers were exchanged

It all began with sms-es

then it became a first meet-up after that fateful night

Played pool with him and his colleagues

Dates soon followed

One and a half month later we were officially a "we"

Two years two months and 10 days later....TODAY

we are sort of engaged (heh), bought a house, exchanged couple rings, met our folks

If people ask about my "other half"

I always say..."oh, he is called Steven and...an amazing guy"

A friend recently replied "oh you must have just gotten together with this guy" (which of course its not true)

When he found out he was impressed "WOW you mean u still find him A-M-A-Z-I-N-G??"

my answer is Yes.

In fact, he is more than just amazing....

far beyond what words can say

He will be the one I want to meet with open arms in heaven, and be in love all over again

ROSAS and NDT

2006-06-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

ngI was lucky to be one of the selected ones to attend a 2 day workshop by ROSAS, a reknowned Belgium modern dance company.

The workshop introduced basic phrases of RAIN and also the interesting choreographic structures used. The actual performance was a spectacular show, I love the movement and counter-movement between the dancers and the retrospective use of the phrases........its simply beautiful.

Unfortunately I couldnt make it for NDT workshop but nonetheless watch their amazing show at Esplanade. The choreography, Pas De Deux, Stage Set were not merely there for aesthetic reasons but for a whole emotion expression. It was so touching....and so inspirating.

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2006-06-24T12:33:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since I blogged..been so busy and tired. Everyday rehearsal...but I am having such a blast doing cabaret. It has been so much fun and truly a learning experience. It is gg to be a great show, so everyone...."Come to the CaBAreT, Old Chum" :)

BTW I am the person the the screen left with fei xiang at the centre...so many pple ask me. heh cant see ma la...we all just zoom past the screen in mere fractions of a second.

CABARET the musical
By ToyFactory Theatre Ensemble
directed by Beatrice Chia
starring Fei Xiang, Emma and Jason

22 to 30 July (total of 12 shows!!!)
I have 15% discount, but i think many cards like SAFRA oso have. But do drop me a msg or call me if u want tickets from me. Mobile: 65 9880 0289

Birthday

2006-06-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

My first day being 24 years old... ;)

I woke up early to run errands and had my vocal class to train my voice for the musical. Fairly good session, the vocal instructress, Amanda--- she is so good.

Then I met up with a long time friend Zhihui... my sec schl best fren. We kind of drifted apart after we left school, prob cos we just got so busy (tsk tsk tsk...excuse excuse) haha.

Today we had a super nice meet-up to chit chat and I apologise to her that I didnt try very hard to keep our friendship going after sec school :) But its so nice cos I still am soooo super comfortable with her, can tell her many things...:) still want this fren!

Cabaret rehearsal start late today. I got to go for my Pilates training! miss it so muchie. HAPPY and feeling fit

At Cabaret, everyone was so sweeeeeeeet:
Beatrice knew I love the delicious cakes from CEDELE and went thru all the trouble to buy two gorgeous cakes (Choc and Cheesecake) for me!
Kris was so sweet and bought me a card!
Zaini send me his version of BD song...haha
KitKatKlub gave me a surprise song and card
Cynthia gave me a box of lovely lashes for my show make-up use

Everyone was jsut so sweet

I got many wishes and love from my many other friends..........THANKS U GUYS!

and best of all...

I ended my night with the person I love most, my dear Steven. SO HAPPY

muacks, love ya dear

its has been a great great birthday

my TART wish!

2006-06-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today I meet two of my bestest friends Stephanie Wong Sze Yuan and Calvina Dawn Lee Hoong :P for brunchie....

we eat marvelous food at CEDELE and I ordered a gorgeous low-fat custard chocolate tart with a huge strawberry and many blueberries (YUMYUMYUM).

I made the two of them sing birthday song (haha) and I made my wish and cut the TART!

MY TART WISH CAME TRUE.

i got this email tonite:

Dear Ying Zhuang, I am pleased to inform you that you have been shortlisted for the NAC Arts Bursary (Overseas). An official letter with the details is on the way.

3rd day

2006-06-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

.... :(

think I am eating too much

2006-06-14T12:05:00.000+08:00

need to diet for CABARET and for Hong Kong la.

Sigh. NO MORE OVEREATING OR SNACKING

2nd day

2006-06-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

...waiting :(

....first day

2006-06-13T00:34:00.000+08:00

waiting still

Hate to Wait

2006-06-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

This week...NAC will be snail-mailling and calling the selected list of applicants for their scholarships/bursaries.

so

wait

wait

and wait

and hope

This Family Needs Help

2006-06-11T12:41:00.000+08:00

I got this email from a friend.

A family needs people with bloodtype AB type of bone marrow.

Do forward this message to your friends so that they can have the opportunity to find the "right person" to help.

Please act as soon as possible.

Contact family at: Chen Siew Cheng : Tel : (02)23708099, Fax : (02)25507098.

I decided to post this here...so that you can get to read this. The success rate may be very slim, but to the family member of the leukaemia (blood cancer) patient, its a hope.

So, please put a little effort, the little girl may have a chance to live because of you.